The despair and the beauty
By Paul Rigg
Guitarist and
songwriter Nick Drake is a cult folk
hero who is revered as both a guitarist and songwriter among people of all
generations. Every year scores of people from all over the world gather in Warwickshire’s
Tanworth-in-Arden, the town where he spent a large part of his life, to pay tribute.
In 2000 a TV commerical made his track Pink
Moon, recorded in 1972, a top five hit on Amazon sales list, his songs were
used in films, and all three of his albums made Rolling Stone magazine’s ‘top
500 albums of all time’ list. Drake is the subject of a number of biographies
and dozens of articles and documentaries about his work. Because of his innovations
in guitar playing and his widespread influence on major acts like R.E.M., The Cure,
John Martyn, Elton John and Beth Orton,
there are many who consider him a genius.
On the night of 24
November 1974, however, Drake was in an entirely different space. It was common
for him go downstairs to eat a bowl of cornflakes in the small hours, when
usually one of his family would wake to talk with him, but on that night he
walked straight past his parent’s bedroom door and no-one heard him.
Due to his
depression, which had seen him hospitalized, his family had taken to hiding aspirins
and other pills but, as his father relates it, it hadn’t been felt necessary to
do that with his anti-depressants.
Drake was in a
particularly dark place. His sister says that he felt ‘he had no more songs.’ His
last sessions, his producer Joe Boyd says, were “agonizing.”
He had told his mother “everything I have ever done has been a
failure.”
His closest female
friend, Sophia Ryde, had ‘asked for more space in their relationship’ the week
before. A letter addressed to her, reportedly ‘expressing his heartbreak’, was later
found in his bedroom.
No-one will ever
know exactly what was going through his mind at the moment he put the first of the
30 Tryptyzol anti-depressants into his mouth, and lay down on his bed.
However Gabrielle, his older sister, said “I do believe that he
did want to die. I am not sure that [the pills] would have killed him if he
hadn’t wanted to die.”
His mother found
him in the morning with ‘his long legs’ stretched out on his bed.
He was 26 years
old.
“When the
game's been fought
Newspaper
blown across the court
Lost much
sooner than you would have thought
Now the
game's been fought”
Lyric from Nick Drake’s the “Day is Done”
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Nick Drake was
born on 19 June 1948 in Rangoon, Burma, where his father was working as an
engineer. When he was four years old his parents took him and his eldest sister
back to England in order for them to receive their education in Britain.
They moved to a
beautiful old house in Tanworth-in-Arden, which would be a bitter-sweet point
of reference for Drake for the rest of his life. “I don’t like it at home,” he once
told his mother, “but I can’t bear it anywhere else.”
While Drake did
well at school, excelling in music and sport, his headmaster wrote on his
report that ‘none of us seem to know him very well’.
And his father later added: “and I think that was it all the way through with Nick,
people didn’t know him very much.”
Drake’s mother
played piano, wrote songs and had her own rudimentary recording set up in her
home. His sister Gabrielle later said: “Nick may have been horrfied to hear this but
I am quite certain that he was very influenced by her whole chord structure and
way of composing.”
Apart from Drake’s sound, perhaps his
mother offers a further clue to both the fragility expressed in his lyrics and
his character in general, because in the documentary ‘A Skin Too Few’ Gabrielle suggests that she was a particularly
vulnerable person and that meeting and marrying their father gave her the
stability to both live and compose. While Drake cultivated a number of
friendships, he never seemed to find a deep intimate relationship that his
mother had found, and that seemed to ground her.
At school Drake played piano and various
other instruments before purchasing his first acoustic guitar at 17, on which
he rapidly learned to finger-pick. He began to write his own songs during the
six months he spent in Aix before heading to Cambridge University, to study
English in 1967. “We would get up, smoke
dope, skip lectures and play guitar… it was a three year holiday,” one
friend says about that time.
This period seems to have been the
happiest of Drake’s life. In one letter to his parents he writes “it may surprise you to hear that during the
last few weeks I have been extraordinarily happy with life and I haven’t a clue
why – it seems that Cambridge can do rather nice things to one if one lets it…
I think I have thrown off some rather useless and restrictive complexes that I
had picked up before coming here.”
Drake studied 17th and 18th century
writers and poets like Swift, Shelley,
Baudelaire and Blake, whose
literary and romantic influences can be seen reflected in his lyrics and, some
suggest, in the way he chose to live his life. “He used to look back on his Cambridge
days with quite a lot of nostalgia,” says his father.
It was during this period that Drake met
Joe Boyd, his producer, and signed to Island Records. “He was a songwriter of extraordinary ability and originality,” says
Boyd. Drake had clear the direction he wanted his first album to take and
enlisted his friend Robert Kirby to do arrangements. Drake was also accompanied
on the album by Richard Thompson from Fairport
Convention, and Danny Thompson
of Pentangle, among others. The sense of positivity and hope for the future can be sensed in
Drake’s lyrics for one of his classic early songs, River man: 'Gonna see the river man, Gonna
tell him all I can, About the plan for lilac-time.'
In 2003 Rolling Stone ranked Five Leaves left – named after a
reminder note that used to appear at the end of a packet of Rizla cigarette
papers - at 280 in its top 500 albums of
all time but, partly due to Drake’s reticence to perform it live, it did not
sell well. Producer Boyd felt that a tour of the college circuit was going to
be sufficient for the public to recognize his talent, but Drake quickly grew
disillusioned by people’s drinking and talking during his concerts, and at one
point walked off stage part-way through a song. “He was very shy and did not have much of a stage presence,” says
Boyd, “he could not charm an audience.”
Drake left Cambridge without finishing
his course and moved to London in 1969, where he continued to compose his rich
melodies.
Robin
Frederick, a songwriter who became friends with
Drake in Aix, describes his unique technique in the following way: “he combined Beatles-style chord progressions with the guitar innovations of
the British folk music scene of the 1960’s. But he immediately leaped far ahead
of his contemporaries in his use of cluster chords.” Drake also used
to detune his guitar – “an idea he
probably got from Bert Jansch (as did Jimmy Page), but his tunings were highly unusual, to say the least.
Even when playing a simple major or minor chord on guitar, he was often singing
the extension.” But why did he do it? Frederick’s response is because of ‘prosody’ – the link that Drake sought to
make between his tormented lyrics and beautiful melodies. “His dissonance and warmth,” she says, made him “some songwriter.”
In 1971 Drake released
Bryter Later on which he was
accompanied by John Cale from the Velvet Underground, Mike Kowalaski from the Beach Boys, and Dave Pegg and Richard Thompson from Fairport Convention, among
others. In 2000, Q magazine
placed Bryter Layter at number 23
in its list of the "100 Greatest British Albums Ever", but it sold
less than 5,000 copies at the time of its release. On the cover a Guild M20 can
be seen, but, like everything in Drake’s life, there is mystery about his
guitars as well. The Guild wasn’t his, and it seems that he didn’t use it on
the recording of Bryter Layter. There is conjecture over the guitar models that
he used throughout his career but the most likely is that they were a Martin
D28, a 00028, a Guild M20 (different to the one used on the cover) and a Yamaha
classic.
Bryter
Later was followed by Pink Moon in 1972, on which he decided to record alone in his
search for a more organic sound. Drake began seeing a psychiatrist around this
time, smoking large amounts of dope and appearing in an increasingly
dishevelled state, to the point that publicity photos that were taken for the
album cover were not used.
Pink
Moon again had poor sales, and Drake returned to
his parent’s home and became increasingly withdrawn. A friend at that time
recalls knocking on his door and when there was no answer, going around to the
back of the house, only to find Drake staring at a wall.
‘Black
Eyed Dog’, which formed part of Drake’s final
recording sessions in 1974, is perhaps
his starkest and most haunting attempt to directly express his depression. At
that moment he was no longer capable of playing guitar and singing at the same
time.
“Black
eyed dog he called at my door,
The
black eyed dog he called for more,
…
I’m growing old and I don’t wanna know,
I’m
growing old and I wanna go home,” he sings.
“I
don’t think he wanted to be a star, but I think he felt that he had something
to say… a feeling that he could make [people] happier,” his sister
Gabrielle says. “’If I thought that my
music had helped one single person it would have been worth it’ – he said
to our mother.”